And words fail me...

Your soul lives on through the chat messages you forced me to save.

9:17 PM me: wassup

9:18 PM came across a quote by one of your fav authors:

  "You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you're looking for the meaning of life." - Albert Camus

9:19 PM hope you are good

ranit mukherji	4/25/12
to me

hi...u must hv sent this when i was sleeping...camus, though a great writer, was time-bound...existentialism as a literary precept has largely lost its relevance with the petering out of the phase that followed the second world war...at best it remains a curious study in literary and social history...so this quote from The Stranger, which also highlights camus' nihilism and stoicism (both of which i find repulsive as lifestyles) doesn't reflect a time-traveller philosophy...if anything, it makes you a good 'Outsider'...i'm as good as i can be after my fourth chemo and 22nd radiation...tk cr

Just what my heart desires

The Same Song - by Susheela Raman

How many roads have I wondered?
None, and each my own
Behind me the bridges have crumbled
No question of return

Autumn leaves like discarded dreams
trampled underneath a tide of careless feet
it’s the same song playing
everywhere I go
it’s like an army marching right through me.

Nowhere to go but the horizon
where, then, will I call my home?

Summer spent, in the high grass
or just fragments, ransacked memories
dark river snakes, across this murky hall
boatman sings his downstream melodies.

How many roads have I wondered?
None, and each my own
Behind me the bridges have crumbled
where, then, will I call my home?

Click here to listen

- Thanks very much Pratiksha for helping me tune in to this :-)

To my precious little!

Dear Mehuli,

I am your parent first, your friend second. I will stalk you, flip out on you, lecture you, drive you insane, be your worst nightmare and hunt you down like a bloodhound when needed because I LOVE YOU! When you understand that, I will know you are a responsible adult. You will NEVER find someone who loves, prays, cares and worries about you more than I do!

Cuddles,

Mamma.

My Immortal - Evanescence - a song dedicated to her father by Amy Da Laura from Evanescence

Wow its 2011!

Time flies (even when you're not having fun) :)

Another year, another set of resolutions, another New Years gone by with fireworks, fun and frolic on the beach. Another rocky, tumultuous year ahead - but with its rewards (there is a light at the end of the tunnel, even though its ever so faint). Another year of enforced separation, battling with depression, worrying myself sick sometimes, trying to cope and keep my chin up always. Another year where there's never enough time, but I still want time to pass in the blink of an eye. I do blink sometimes, quite often really - when I'm trying to fight the hot tears that appear out of nowhere. Great expectations for the future, and bittersweet memories. Fast forward to 2012 and beyond; rewind to 2010, 2009, 2008... Live for the moment - isn't that what they say? But its another year of biding my time, treading water and trying my damnedest to stay afloat, another year of trying to be a good mother, a good wife, a good daughter and a good sister.

God give me strength.

The Killers - Human

Remembering Patrick Swayze

It's been exactly a year since he died, on 14th September, 2009 - after a long battle with pancreatic cancer - and I thought I'd take this chance to talk about the things that made him special and also my favourite movies.

Patrick was a true romantic - on screen and in real life. He married his childhood hometown sweetheart, Lisa Remi, who was his mother's favourite student at the performing arts academy they both attended. Back in the '80s, where macho ruled supreme on the silver screen and action heros were the order of the day, Swayze brought in his own flavour of the romantic hero, but with a generous dose of masculinity along with it.

Even though his biggest hit by far was Ghost (1990), I actually like Point Break (1991), directed by Kathryn Bigelow (Hurt locker) a lot better. Swayze overshadows everyone in the movie, including Keanu Reeves with his Zen-like rendition of Bodhi, the misguided surfer.

Although his debut on the big screen was in the 1983 Coppola movie, The Outsiders (also featuring Tom Cruise, Matt Dillon and several other future Hollywood stars), followed by the 1984 cold war rendition, Red Dawn, it wasn't till a few years later than Swayze finally arrived in the big league.

And then, who could forget Dirty Dancing (1987), an iconic film when I was growing up - also featuring Jennifer Grey, who carried off the role of the girl-next-door to perfection. Grey says of Swayze - he was a "real cowboy with a tender heart." Patrick even sang on the soundtrack to the movie score, which so many of us know by heart, with a tribute song to his wife - 'She's like the wind'.


But if you're looking for the serious committed actor, look no further than Darko (2001), where Swayze plays a celebrity pedophile, in what has to be the most challenging role of his career. Not his most celebrated performance, but it shows off Patrick Swayze as the mature actor who could pull off a demanding role, just as he was so successful playing the open-shirted, big-hearted hero that so many in my generation grew to love.

R.I.P Patrick Swayze, animal lover (he bred horses), doting father and husband.

Demi Moore tweeted a quote from Ghost - "'It's amazing Molly. The love inside, you take it with you.' I love (you) and will miss you, Patrick."

So will we.

We remember you this day.

oRiOn