An Alzheimer's ringtone...!

Cut my Life into Pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Dont give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding

This is my last resort

Cut my life into pieces
Ive reached my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Dont give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
Do you even care if I die bleeding
Would it be wrong
Would it be right
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And Im contemplating suicide

Cuz Im losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine

I never realized I was spread too thin
Till it was too late
And I was empty within
Hungry
Feeding on chaos
And living in sin
Downward spiral where do I begin
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself
And no love for another
Searching to find a love up on a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils

Cuz Im losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me in fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine
Nothings alright
Nothing is fine
Im running and Im crying
Im crying
Im crying
Im crying
Im crying

I cant go on living this way

Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Dont give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
Would it be wrong
Would it be right
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And Im contemplating suicide

Cuz Im losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me Im fine
Nothings alright
Nothing is fine
Im running and Im crying

I cant go on living this way
Cant go on
Living this way
Nothings alright

- Papa Roach

PS: It's truly ironic where I heard this song for the first time...

My MIND's 'Sway'-ing to this evergreen song

When marimba rhythms start to play
Dance with me, make me sway
Like a lazy ocean hugs the shore
Hold me close, sway me more

Like a flower bending in the breeze
Bend with me, sway with ease
When you dance you have a way with me
Stay with me, sway with me

Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have that magic technique
When we sway I go weak

I can hear the sound of violins
Long before it begins
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now

Instrumental

Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have that magic technique
When we sway I go weak

I can hear the sound of violins
Long before it begins
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now

When marimba rhythms starts to play
Dance with me, make me sway
Like a lazy ocean hugs the shore
Hold me close, sway me more

Like a flower bending in the breeze
Bend with me, sway with ease
When we dance you have a way with me
Stay with me, sway with me

When marimbas start to play
Hold me close, make me sway
Like an ocean hugs the shore
Hold me close sway me more

Like a flower bending in the breeze
Bend with me, sway with ease
When we dance you have a way with me
Stay with me, sway with me

- Michael Buble

Of Superheroes (and Villains)

Originality is not something that's the standout in this weekend's new release from Marvel, The Incredible Hulk.

But then superheroes are cast in a mould, and their primary objective is to wage war against evil and prevail, against all odds.

Many of the most loved superheroes are characters laden with angst, tortured souls like DC's Batman, who decided to fight crime after his parents were gunned down in front of him.

Others, like Marvel's Iron Man, are weighed down by their conscience and guilt, inspired to work tirelessly (and selflessly) for a better world, and thereby pay penance for their previous misadventures.

Edward Norton's portrayal of Bruce Banner and his alter-ego Hulk, adds credibility and class to a slick, well-produced movie, which also marks Marvel's first foray into cinema - a departure from their traditional royalty/franchise model seen in Spiderman and X-Men. I, for one, enjoyed it more than I did Ang Lee's Hulk. Liv Tyler, as always is at her shimmeringly beautiful best and adds that oh-so-vulnerable contrast to the superhero's invincibility.

It got me thinking about my favourite superhero portrayals and here's a list which many of you may disagree with, but I do have my reasons for including them in my 'magnificent seven'.

No list of great superheroes (and villains) would be complete without Jack Nicholson's portrayal of the Joker in the Batman series. I would be doing an injustice if I didn't mention Danny DeVito's Penguin, another character portrayal where the actor is intrinsically attached to the role itself.

Marvel took a major gamble in casting Robert Downey Jr. as Tony Stark, given the actor's battles with his personal demons. But it paid off handsomely, and marked a new age for superhero movies. With critics and the paying public applauding the movie alike, the cash registers are ringing now at Marvel Studios, with half a billion dollars in revenues. A far cry indeed from the time Marvel's then CEO placed a 'winner-takes-all' wager and borrowed $550 million to finance setting up a studio. Historically reduced to receiving royalties from the successes of Spiderman and X-Men, Marvel's resurgence has enabled it to finally catch up (and indeed, surpass in many respects) its rival DC (Batman, Superman).

The contrast between Marvel and DC is what adds spice to the contest - Marvel's 1960's upstarts and misfits to DC's 1930's style square-jawed champions of truth, justice and peace. For me, there's plenty of space for both to co-exist. But then, I'm a committed superhero fan, as I hope many of you reading this are.

Christopher Reeve's 'faster than a speeding bullet' Superman holds a special place in an entire generation, but thats not enough to secure him a place in my list, unlike Tim Burton's Batman, the sexiest film of 1989 - with an excellent original score underpinning a tight screenplay and slick cinematography. It went on to gross more than $400 million worldwide.

Ian McKellen's Magneto in X-Men is a wonderful villain, because he is supremely self-assured, rather than just megalomaniacal - an orator, a populist leader, a rabblerouser, a master of rhetoric. McKellen is so good that its almost unfair.

Far from Hollywood dumbing down by making movies about comics, as was the assumption in the Eighties and Nineties, its actually smartening up. The next few years sees a raft of new releases and sequels from both Marvel and DC - the Iron Man
sequels, Wanted (starring Angelina Jolie and based on a smart and sassy comic), Hellboy II (the sequel to the cult original), Hancock (with Will Smith as the distinctly unheroic superhero!) and Alan Moore's Watchmen are all guaranteed viewing
pleasure.

Here's the difference - while one of the producers of Judge Dredd hadn't even heard of the people who created the character, Marvel Studios invited in a brains trust of 'all the people who'd written the Iron Man comic, and amazingly, treated them with respect'.

But there's another entry on the list - the lone woman, Michelle Pfeiffer's beautiful and seductive, but completely insane and deadly Catwoman in Batman Returns. In contrast with Halle Berry, whose part limited her natural abilities. Just goes to show that the hero doesn't necessarily take the cake when it comes to these flicks.



Whilst on the subject of heroes and villains, I'm biting my nails in anticipation of this summer's hottest release - the late Heath Ledger along with Christian Bale's excellent Batman in Dark Knight. Named after the graphic novel from 1986 that was too bleak to film at the time, it stars Ledger as the truly pschotic Joker.

The List:

1. Jack Nicholson, Joker
2. Danny DeVito, Penguin
3. Edward Norton, Hulk
4. Robert Downey Jr, Tony Stark
5. Tim Burton, Batman
6. Ian McKellen, Magneto
7. Michelle Pfeiffer, Catwoman

@ oRiOn 2008

She's A Star

Whenever she's feeling empty
Whenever she's feeling insecure
Whenever her face is frozen
Unable to fake it anymore
Her shadow is always with her
Her shadow will always keep her small
So frightened that he wont love her
She builds up a wall

Oh no, she knows where to hide in the dark
Oh no, she's nowhere to hide in the dark

She's a star

She's been in disguise forever
She's tried to disguise her stellar views
Much brighter than all this static
Now she's coming through

Oh no, she knows where to hide in the dark
Oh no, she's nowhere to hide in the dark

She's a star

Don't tell her to turn down,
Put on your shades if you can't see,
Don't tell her to turn down,
Turn up the flame.
She's a star

It's a long road
It's a great cause
It's a long road
Its a good call
You got it,
You got it,

SHE'S A STAR

My Hero, My Heroine

Once there was perfection
When neither of us could do no wrong.
The world was this warm, fuzzy place
Everything was bright and shiny
In many ways like chasing the dragon.

We were eagerly chasing something,
Maybe nothing, but it didn't matter.

But then seasons change, and,
In our hurry to get someplace
We lost our way -
Wait! Isn't this where we started?
Or is this yet another dead-end...

Its heartbreaking, yet true
We must turn back
For its not meant to be,
Not today, maybe not anyday.

Calming down is the hardest of all
Coming down, we're held in thrall...
How do we know that we won't fall?

The cracks appear, the faultlines exaggerated
And now we're walking on ice
Desperately seeking firm ground.

Is that a beacon, is it our minds playing games?
The wind is high, we shiver yet brave the chill,
We must hurry, whilst there's time still.
Before we turn against each other
Before our misgivings turn to mistrust.
We're alone in this now,
With not even our shadows for company in this desolate hell.
Our nerves are raw, our bodies numb,
Our mouths dry, teeth clenched...
Everywhere - there's nothing but
The dank, stale stench of fear.

But we still have hope,
Its all we need -
Keeping us going,
Despite our weaknesses
Inspite of ourselves.

Hallelujah, its a miracle!
Salvation is ours...our prayers answered for once.
The light was no illusion!
Didn't I say it was real?
We embrace, we hug, we kiss
First the relief, then the tears...
The palpable tension of moments ago
Seems already a part of some distant dream.

Lets not get lost any more
And lets not lose ourselves
For the world is this warm, fuzzy place again
And everything is bright and shiny.
Only this time, there are no speedballs...
Who needs 'em anyway?

Promises, promises...
Can we keep them this time?

Isn't this what makes us human -
Our very own pantomime?

@oRiOn 2008

When The Night Is Upon Us

'When I read your last blog entry I realized that I'd lost you a long time ago...

And now, the vultures are circling.

Nevermind the darkest days, full of foreboding and doubt -

The flame needs but a spark, and the mind reassurance.

When the night is upon us, and

When darkness sourrounds us,

Our love will prevail, darling.'

Epitomises what our relationship stands for - hope and willpower.

eX-Y-Z on my MIND ;)

me: u tell me. wat wl u get frm me?

him: see if you want me 2 justify myself, sorry i wont. I think abt it as an intangible connect

me: gtg close to me cud b complicated

him: why?

me: i hv nothing to give

him: so?

me: so why wud u travel all this way?

him: ooph! what the hell do you want me to say?

me: watever is on ur mind

him: that once upon a time a piece of the sky fell near me and I am still looking to piece it together... totally irreverent of the fact that it has coalesced with other elements and is out of my reach now!